Hes incredibly angry, and hes sure you can hear his yells of anger for miles away, of him screaming about how unforgivable something like this is, for such disgusting vermin to put their hands on you, to try and use you for such an act, to steal you away from him, to even glance in your direction. The toy maker looked at me with crazed eyes. I noticed an open door, the only thing I could distinguish from the darkness. I was able to tell her about my amnesia in complete confidence. Keeping you on your toes is absolutely his favorite thing, and whenever he succeeds in catching you off guard it gives him such joy and elation because after all, Jason hates to lose in games. Completed jasonthetoymaker sarahmkj puppeteer +6 more # 3 Yandere Jason the Toymaker x Reader by No Body The two of you are a team getting through this together, and she wants you to remember that. This caused me to have to take tranquillizers. All you have to do to survive is not piss them off, especially both at the same time. F/c- fav You forget about an old friend from your childhood. #janethekiller He took her up without effort and pushed her into his chest to prevent her from wiggling out of him. Daisy felt tired immediately. I rushed over to the doll and turned her face in my trembling hands. He is a sadistic serial killer who only wants a friend to be by his side. Hes quick to get you home, rushing out so many apologies, about how hes disgraced you, about how someone as holy and heavenly as yourself should never have to go through that. His lacerations coterized in a few seconds and he was back to his usual appearance. Relationships of Jason the toy maker Sep 18, 2018 3 min read Add to Favourites By Krisantyl Published: Sep 18, 2018 Favourites 5K Views :bademoticon: Once again, I am forced to explain the relationship status of Jason the toy maker. I could have presented them to other children, or thrown them in the rubbish. U^U Sully doesnt have Lius intelligence or planning skills, he just knows he desperately needs to get you back, and thats what he does. Perhaps, I didnt have a real thing for dolls, and to tell the truth, her presence in my room bothered me. Jason the Toymaker is a creature with human features who loves building and inventing toys. I watch them cutting through my skin, making me bleed. One day I tried, really, I did, but when I took one of them in my arms, a strong sense of anxiety and terror stopped me. I remember someone sent a similar request, thanks, Hey, dont write this if you dont feel comfortable with it, but how would the yandere creeps react to an S/O with an eating disorder? She had a headdress of flowers flowing through her hair and only few locks caressed her cheeks. I was a loyal friend, while the ones surrounding you only looked for you when they needed you! Hell begin spending as much time as he physically can with you, and while doing this, hes also usually preventing others from hanging out with you. Watch the official DA Team profile for news, product releases, and devious activities: OLD FANFICTION CRINGE WARNING. In spite of everything, why didnt I get rid of them? Always refer to the pinned post about requests. #bloodypainter She comforts you while keeping a slight distance, and she tries to get you to gently open up to her so she can figure out to help you. I saw that they were not real people. His full origin is revealed in this story written by Kristantyl but posted to her friend IvyDarkRose's account: Whenever he's furious his appearance changes to reveal his true form. My eyes landed on the doll. Hell begin making demands of you, some of which you physically cant meet, and when you disappoint him he grows upset, angry, saying it proves you dont love him enough. Don't m Ted the Caver. I put my ear over her chest and heard another sound along with that horrible wheeze, the pounding of a heart. W-Why did you do that?. A sort of subdued sound like a wheeze. He turned around and when my father saw Jasons face, he opened his eyes wide and my mother covered her mouth to conceal her screams. Obviously, there were some unpleasant consequence to my trauma. However, he was lucky that his tiredness was responsible for his encounter with someone who could distract him by their mysterious appearance and unstable temper, the toymaker . He was a possessive beast who concealed himself from my childish eyes behind an angels face. The faces of my real parents were like faded masks in my mind. When youre that deep, you are NEVER getting away from Jack now. Jansen Panettiere's cause of death has been revealed to have been from an enlarged heart and other complications.The actor's parents Lesley Vogel and . "Hey." You smiled back and greeted him happily. Oh, and do behave. It was you! I was possessed by anger and I started hitting him, You killed them!" This one will be glued to your side for months, never letting you out of his sights for even a moment, and his home security for keeping you locked up escalates greatly. Jason will probably escalate to just keeping you locked up inside wherever the two of you live, whether Yandere or not, just keeping you to himself. The actors parentsLesley Vogel and Skip Panettiere as well as his sister Haydenshared his cause of death in a statement toABC News,a little over a week after his unexpected passing at 28. It's a fanfic. If you want a g (NO MORE REQUESTS!!!!!!!) That day he showered me with his exasperation, he expected me to give him more attention because in his arrogance he believed he deserved everything from me. While he thought you were dead, he was panicking, screaming, crying, beating himself up because he thought hed ruined everything again like he always does, but then you sit up, and you ask him whats wrong, and something in his brain changes. Jasons smile turned into an infuriated scowl and he increased his grip on my wrist. Just kidding!. Basica A story of my creepy pasta ships but mainly the love story of Candy and L.J. He wants to have fun with you, try and see if you really can figure out all of his intentions, if you can try and see through the lies and manipulations that he tells you. Birthday: November 15th. Hell have a huge wedding, inviting all of those high society people hes worked so hard to set up connections with so he can show you off, show them all you belong to nobody but him. So this book is full of CP Zodiacs! Now Ill show you what happens to those that try to hinder me, mom. I dont understand he growled quietly, I dont understand! he screamed, grinding his teeth, his face became more terrifying, I was the only one who stayed by your side when your parents preferred working rather than staying with you! -Outro gatilho tambm retratando sobre bullying,pais que abusam de seu poder e humilhao. He probably has a special section of his home/workshop that he displays all of your gifts in, and he looks at them and treasures them every day as a reminder that youve finally accepted him, so now he never has to let you go. She doesnt want to (completely) manipulate you into trusting her because of your disorder, but she does want to help you through it. Finally! exclaimed Daisy smiling. You have everything you've ever wanted. Daisy? I did not have the slightest idea of who he was. Most days, if you keep yourself on good behavior and do what they ask of you, youll be in good graces. When you first give Jack a present hes extremely suspicious of you. #katethechaser Edit. Jason's age is unknown, but he appears to have the appearance of a 19 year old. My dreams had turned into meaningless nightmares! I looked for you for so long. His legs and chest ached. Gorillaz: A Haunting - Chapter 1: Random Nonscence. An anthology series about the scariest things humanity has to offer! by SarahMKJ 9.7K 264 14 Y/n is happy where she is. Jason proudly displays everything you make amongst the house and his workroom. If he begins calling you his little clay doll then you know youre in trouble. Manage all your favorite fandoms in one place! But, at the same time, nobodys ever given him a gift before, and theyre something thats meant to be treasured, right? Jason starts being much crueler in his training and punishments with you, working to get you used to being compliant and good for him. I saw a glimpse of people standing still gazing down at me. I leaned down for him and put him back on the bed. Go away, be gone! He clenched his arm around her neck, while the other arm broke the hand that stabbed him. #jason_the_toymaker | 3.3K people have watched this. It almost looked like they wanted to test me and I couldnt bare it anymore. Helen is thrust into an incredibly bad panic the second he realizes youve been taken away, and hes freaking out. Rushing home was useless, because the blue door reappeared at the center of the living room. I elevated my gaze and noticed a doll sitting on my bed. #leiturafemenino Currently building: Black Unicorn. A thick, black liquid dripped to the floor. He was able to give me everything and at the same time terminate everyone around me. S/N-CertoMe fazer feliz seu objetivo no?Podemos fazer isto juntos-Fala agora com tom sereno e cansado ao mesmo tempo-Vamos ver se consegue fazer sua boneca feliz. Launching in early 2023. The trauma was so deep that it made me forget most of my life. The wall next to the door enlarged, like there was a bubble between the paint and the cement. Manage all your favorite fandoms in one place! I'm just a poor worm, nobody loves me. First published Sep 19, 2019. Real age: Around a 100 years old. The perfect little doll crafting the perfect little pieces of art. She was a kind and generous person; she was always welcome in our family. If you dont want to have to go through all of that pain over and over again, youll learn to be the most well behaved doll that you can be, either that or that vicious part of him that loves the way your blood looks when its coating your surroundings is going to surface over and over again. 'Laughing Jack' belongs to Snuffbomb Which Creepypasta Clown would kill you 2 weeks ago Ms.Lolida Scary LJ Laughing Jill Jason The Toymaker Candy pop and Candy Cane Witch creepypasta would kill Which Creepypasta Is Stalking You ? Find someone to play with for all eternity. He laughed amused by my pain while he pierced the flesh under my nails with needles. He seemed really happy by your side and you were too. Whenever he's furious his appearance changes to reveal his true form. I always ended up putting them back in their places, on the furniture, my bed, and the shelves. Specifically BEN, Jane, and Jason (separately). Why did this thought persecute me? ", We run to the kitchen, hearing that monsters laugh follow us and once we were in, we could still see through the windows, the toy makers little factory. Meet Jason the Toymaker, one of the most artistic and creative toy designers around, but there is something wrong with Jason, something so wrong it could mean death. :]. There was only one toy I took with me at night, despite my age, I couldnt separate myself from him and felt a familiar affection from him that started long before my amnesia. Cover by me! She works hard and has good friends. 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He just cant help but cling to you at all times. He was the only one who was there for me my whole life. The specialists told my parents it must have been linked to a particular memory, which was continuously blocked from my mind. You can tell hes still burning with rage, but hes incredibly gentle as he cleans the two of you up, whispers hushed words about how youre alright now, hes got you, youre back where you belong. 2021-09-14T23:46:33Z Comment by Elliot Phantomhive. Creepypasta Boyfriend Scenarios (Male Reader). She screamed a lot. Sempre foi assim desde que era uma criana,seus pais humilhavam e desprezavam prpria criana que ambos colocaram neste cruel mundo,onde quem mais forte lidera,contando mentiras e ocultando qualquer coisa que seja a verdade,foi assim que S/N foi em sua infncia e adolescncia inteira por conta disso tem srios problemas de confiana e decidiu nunca mais encontrar seus pais novamente,por toda presso que passava em sua "casa" elu nem chamava aquilo de casa em sua mente uma moradia de verdade era totalmente diferente. I managed to escape his clutches running as far from him as I could. My father had a wooden club, he aimed a blow at the monsters head, but it was the wood that broke. When I finally saw him, his face primed a bomb that exploded, setting my memories that were buried deep in the corners of my mind all those years free. Hes going to be even more possessive with you, telling himself hes the only other being in the entire world that you need, so he pretty much glues himself to your side, constantly demanding affection and attention from you because hes convinced himself thats exactly what you want, whether it is or not. That was all that I felt. #hoodie 29m. This couldnt be true, obviously. He can't stand to be left alone, he can't stand it when the center of attention moves . Just hope you dont break a rule, because otherwise, well, the punishment will be extreme for breaking his idealized version of you. He looks and acts like the perfect friend but in reality he's a selfish, lying, possessive control freak who'll kill anyone he perceives as standing in the way of his goal. Ive been struggling lately, and I think this might help. One of them is ALWAYS with you, and if they have to step away, you have Jasons toys peeking around the corner, keeping their eyes on you, always ready to act if they feel the need to. While my friend was talking, I listened to her and kept on drawing without taking my eyes off the sheet of paper. - No foi um dos melhores captulos,ento vou logo pedindo perdo. He was fiendish! 'Jason The Toymaker' belongs to Krisantyl. Jansens heart could be seen in his eyes, and his charm in his brilliant, engaging smile; his soul in his masterful and revealing paintings, and the joy of life in his dry wit, they said. The only thing besides his dolls that he guards with his affection is a special music box hidden inside his chest. #nurseann The wound appeared as a little rip in the center, which enlarged as the flesh shredded like paper. Jason has burgendy red hair, wears a stripped black and white hat. I rubbed my eyes, and realized that I was sweating. Yan!Jason would turn you into a doll to guarantee you staying with him forever, preventing anyone else from having you. Sure, he was freaking out the moment he killed you, scared hed lost you forever, but then you just wake back up, all traces of injuries gone, and something dark and tainted within his brain just clicks. He pulled the door shut, blocking it in it's setting, deforming the wood. At first I was frozen in place, all I could do was stare at her; I didnt understand how she had appeared there. What do you expect? When his appearance changes so does his toys, they turn from merely fun playthings to little monsters that can hurt and kill. We talked while sheltering from the sun in the shade of the tree. 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Within that dark abyss, two green sparkling eyes appeared before me, they were a few inches away from my face. Here's your chance! Silence, woman! It was as if I fell asleep in that exact moment, I battered my eyelids in front of the sheet of paper and felt rather confused about seeing a drawing repeated several times on the same character. Do you like dolls? Mr. Bunny even showed it to you he smiled with self-evident truth, I made many toys for you and I cant wait to introduce you to Mereanda, but you can call her Mandy if you like. I stood up then sat back down when I couldnt breathe. Y/n- your name F/c- fav. Jason is reveling in his pride, his ego inflating even bigger than it already was because surely that means hes won, right? She doesn't remember her past but it doesn't bother her. After getting you home, Sully will be incredibly protective in the coming weeks. I think it would take a while to build up to the doll making process. At the age of nine, something happened to my family. You can take me with you, but leave my mother alone, I said with my trembling voice, After all were friends, right? I tried to smile convincingly, despite the fact I was trembling from head to toe and my eyes were filled with tears. Why did I hate those stuffed toys? I hadnt the slightest idea of what was happening. Some awesome parents, Maddalena and Steven, who adopted me and gave me a feeling which I had forgotten, the warm feeling of having a family. Dads battery decreased, it should be recharged!. Hed always been somewhat cocky, so self assured that he could protect you, and then he went and did that, but now- now youre back, and he assures himself this will never happen ever again. The image of that door got closer, in order to show me their vacant expression, despite the grimaces plastered on their faces. Species: A monstrous human being. Toby had never received gifts before, and so he views this as you doing a great kindness, of you LOVING him enough to do something so special. It only took a yank from the toy maker to tear her out of my arms. I'm not the owner of Jason The Toy Maker this is just a fan page. Freddy fazbear has come to see you. Stream Jason The Toy Maker Original Voice by sadness and happyness on desktop and mobile. My parents appreciated her good manners, but what I loved bout her especially was that; she never asked me anything about my past. Jason the Toymaker was created by Krisantyl. Candy Pop (Best Friend; Sometimes Because He Get's On Jason's Nerves). Excellent choice, Maggie At that moment, his arms took back their usual color. I began screaming and let her fall to the floor while standing up in horror, trembling violently, pushing myself to the wall, screaming for my parents. That blond hair and face made of wax looked strangely familiar. She works hard and has good friends. I unbuttoned Daisys dress, who looked imprisoned under the tons of wax and I started to dig, trying to set her free. Maggie, I give you one last chance Jason said calmly, walking down the stairs, After which Ill dye the walls with the blood of all who surround you. You even threw Mr. Bunny on the floor, but I forgive you. His original coat and hat look is no longer canon, the one pictured above is. I dreamt about that dark figure again, who brutally tortured me and kept saying the same phrase over and over again: Shes mine. He ruined my body with rusty toolson the contrary; he said he was going to fix me all up. Ah! Enjoy it, itll be the very last time you ever see other people ever again. ), another wind up mouse toy named Red Mouse (inside of it there's a mechanical explosive device, this toy was created for exploding at a minimal touch) and a gigantic living stuffed toy snake named Mr. Glutton (it eats the wax dolls after they get too old). Now everything is alright. When it comes to the actual wedding, he makes both of your outfits himself, does your hair and any makeup for the two of you himself, makes you look like the perfect, pristine doll he wants you to be, and the wedding will be tough. The terror overwhelmed me, and Daisys blood on my fingers was more real than anything else I have felt. No matter how far I ran the smell of blood and that of decomposed flesh still lingered in the air. #ninathekiller Jason will infantilize you as he always does in his yandere state, and like BEN, he teaches you that you cant get through this without him, you need him to do everything for you, to be the one to comfort you through everything, to be the one to help you and coach you through it, and possibly much to your complaint, he does a wonderful job at it. Because all Jason wants is for you to be with him forever, loving him and being your bright shining self. Sometimes I'll do a double update and sometimes I'll do an update everyday. He massacred my parents; he took his revenge by taking them away from me, and almost got me too. Please be careful, this isn't something to mess around with. Complete. Sully, on the other hand, is the one that does immediately rush in, blood pumping and fists flying. Arent you happy about Daisy coming to visit you? said the monster, standing on the threshold of the door, I didnt like her either, you know? Hell display you in a prominent place, always taking extreme care of you, his favorite doll. Start reading. Jason the Toymaker is a creature with human features who loves building and inventing toys. Also, your a girl. Might as well give it a try. Hell spend hours talking to you, touching you, loving you, as he claims, even though you cant return any of the affection, but that doesnt matter to him. So, I'm bored and saw more of these female scenarios than male. Mom! It was coming from the doll. Jason proudly displays everything you make amongst the house and his workroom. We are also working out the quality of the audio, but for the moment the early clips are best listened to at a bit lower volume. The disgusting sound of the flesh pierced by the knife could be heard clearly, while the shirt was ripping but Jason kept his balance perfect. She wore an embroidered white laced dress with a black ribbon tied to her waist. They raised me in their house until I turned fifteen. Highest story ranking: Well ok, Daisy came to visit you, I told her to wait for you in the living room. However, if you stay, theres no going back now. Suddenly something hit him in the head shattering it into pieces. At the second turn, I shouted, covering my ears to block out the sound of the breaking bones, but I couldnt take my eyes off my fathers body contorting itself like a snake. These things exist only in books, or in our imagination, but in my astonishment, I felt something was going to come out that door. My mothers voice blocked. His charisma, warmth, compassion for others, and his creative spirit will live forever in our hearts and in the hearts of all whom he encountered.. At the time of his passing, no cause of death was reported and foul play was not suspected. You might not want to do your crafting too frequently; if you do, its likely hell associate you with crafting much too deeply, and, well, I can see him getting a twisted image of you. Her arms were unusually long; she had long tapering fingers that were not normal. He puts his favorites out in the places hes always guaranteed to see them. He has far more fun with it than he probably should, but he just loves keeping you on your toes, he loves the look on your face as you consider every one of his actions, as you try desperately to see what hes doing, and he revels in it, he loves it so much. #femenino I remembered his friendly smile but nothing else. Jason the Toymaker has 3 toy sidekicks: a black wind up mouse toy named Licorice (It spies and controls everything surrounding the toymaker. I touched her face and realized there was something wrong. He wears a black jacket, with voluminous fur on top. I brought some colored pencils and blank sheets of paper and we both started drawing. His goal is to convince "the chosen one" (all his targets are mostly girls) to make a promise to play with him for all eternity. When he understands the chosen one can't keep the promise and wants to go away, Jason punishes them by transforming them into a wax doll so that they won't abandon him. Mas elu tinha um namorado no final das contas e no era o melhor na verdade,na verdade poderia ser um pouco melhor sua escolha ao sentimento amoroso mas no deixava de am-lo,o nome de seu namorado era Jason The Toymaker,aquele homem no era o melhor para dar apoio emocional e moral para a pessoa que ama mas claro,tinha notado que S/S no estava nada bem mentalmente parecia at instvel emocionalmente o que preocupava um pouco Jason mas no podia deixar de fazer bonecas mas o sentimento de frustrao o deixava sem vontade de fazer seu trabalho,ele tinha que resolver aquele assunto logo. Doesnt matter to him either way, after all, youll still be his to admire. But, when the gifts keep coming, he finds his suspicions wearing thin and he finds himself falling even further in love with you if that was even possible. His design was changed back in 2016. Image Credit: Broadimage/Shutterstock. #clockwork He is tall young man with red hair, amber eyes and he has black mark under his eye but his appearance drastically changes when he gets angry with his hair turning white, eyes glowing bright green and his hands develop long sharp nails and becoming rotten. Cardiomegaly can be caused by certain types of heart disease and damage. I only had some remains of my childhood, faceless names and total darkness. His body build is slim and tall with a bit of muscles. It was stupid, I know. Sex: Male. Jason the Toymaker was once a human named Jason Meyer. Right!? Descobre agora. My father didnt waste time, trying again to set me free. All the rest disappeared in the dark, so did he. The feelings were so terribly real. Just a good Intimiccine. #creepypastaships 1st - 07/02/21 Suspicious. His punishments are much nicer, and hes just so snuggly and soft and teary most of the time, trying his best to truly keep you safe and happy, even if that means he spends every single waking moment glued to your side. Time after time, the stuffed toys were the ones staring at me. S/N-Certo mas o que exatamente quer saber de mim?-Resmungando fala o garote que olhava atentamente ao adulto sua frente que agora ficou um pouco mais tenso e srio. Hi everyone I'm Sherlock! The whole time, hes moving in a blur, not really processing whats happening. He was walking slowly, with a fixed look at and his eyes wide-open. I turned around to rest my legs and in that moment, I touched something with my foot. But why do you always feel numb? As soon as she saw my exhausted face, the smile on her face faded away. Jason smirked he was downright satisfied and pleased with his victory. You've been kidnapped by a red-haired stranger, who has decided to spare your life in exchange for friendship. # 2 The Dollhouse (Jason the Toymaker. The faster you learn that Helen is very transparent about his wants and desires from you, the easier itll be for you to deal with living with him for the rest of your life. Here Are The CreepyPastas And Their Randomness. I am Jason the Toy Maker he exclaimed, Your faithful friend, the only one you could trust! At hearing that name something moved in my memories, like an electric shock had run through my body. Let's start from here shall we?. Since I was little I thought the stuffed toys in my room were alive and sometimes I tried to prove it: I spied on my room from the hall with the door ajar, I then turn away and suddenly turn back and never took my eyes off them, not until I felt a burning sensation from not blinking my eyes. Jason-Sei que j sofreu o suficiente e no estou aqui para lhe dar uma lio de moral,algo que no me parece to atraente no momento-Enuncia o adulto que olha para as prprias mos que estavam cobertas com luvas pretas-Mas est me irritando o modo que est agindo sobre isso,sempre triste e no demonstra tantas emoes e to incomodante que s vezes eu quero!-Ele esbraveja mas para com suas palavras amargas sobre a pessoa que ama tentando se controlar-Mas sabeBonecas no ficam tristes e no quero que fique assim tambm,portanto quero lhe ajudar de algum modo-Props o criador de bonecas com uma cara at engraada de se ver,ele parecia nervoso e tenso sobre suas palavras mas precisava ter dito-Ajudar a lhe fazer feliz e dar um pouco de cor sua vida,quero minha boneca feliz como s que fao Parece que ele no vai desistir to fcil. He then came closer and I wanted to scream, to beg, but the horror I had witnessed left me completely paralyzed unable to do anything which left me squeezing up with my mother.